Freedom: Day One

Today is my first day of officially celebrating International Freedom From Self-Improvement Day, created with love by self-care author Jennifer Louden.

Here is what I've got:

I have begun the morning doing what I am moved to do and nothing more. A *should* came up-that I should be responsible and balance the bank accounts. And I asked myself if not answering that *should* would make me an irresponsible person, because that is what a tiny but growing voice was hinting at. These still-existing voices allow me no joy. Of course I have to take care of the banking-but why must the thought of it be laced with judgement, cruelty, a nagging lack of love, negotiation with the terrorists within?
Today I’m saying fuck the terrorists. I’m going outside to put my feet under the waterhose and admire our new tiny trailer, the Tiki Ti.  (More about that vintage hottie later.)
I’ll get to that banking sometime today. For now, I want to notice all that is behind that simple task, and of course, get my feet wet in the meantime.
I want to be careful that in my thinking I’m not actually *shoulding* myself to stop *shoulding*.
Oh dear.

Comments

[Holly]

You *could* use "could" instead of "should." It's much more freeing.

I can't wait to learn more about the lil' Tiki Ti!

Happy Mom's Day. And Happy Freedom Day - may we gift ourselves many more!
Holly

[hot toddy]

Can't wait to see you in a couple weeks. Yay!

[liz elayne]

i love this...had to smile at the thought of not shoulding yourself to stop shoulding. i do that too...especially with guilty...feeling guilty for allowing myself to feel guilty.

i love letting that go today (and every other day that i can)!

[Goddess of Leonie]

fuck the shoulding.

let's run scream-laughing FREE from the shoulding.

preferably starkers. while carrying a large glass of some pink and frothy drink. in dress up hats.

LIBERATION FROM SHOULDING DAY.