This morning I received an email from a healing center about a class on depossession and clearing that really caught my attention. The reason for this is because I have been feeling for the past couple of days as if I've been thrown into an unknown, unstable waiting room. Something from my past, or something *hanging around* in my unconscious that isn't ready to let go yet?
It's a bit haunting, actually. It feels strongly of transition, more than fear. The moon is turning full tonite and according to my new year card layout (a card for every full moon during the year and then one overall card) I am entering the domain of the Hanged Man. This indicates a time to turn everything upside down and look at it that way. Except that I pulled it in reverse! Where in the heck does that leave me?
I'm assuming it means that I resist changing my perspective and seeing things differently. So I'm setting up to practice that. The whole idea has an Alice in Wonderland feel to it, so I'm going to try to have fun down this rabbit hole. Perhaps I'll have a tea party!
Last night I dreamed of a black car that wouldn't go anywhere, I couldn't get it fixed. Miles and Brandon even drove it (oddly enough, they could drive it) all the way to Orange County, but they arrived at 6pm (?) just after the mechanic had closed shop.
Suspended in timelessness, like the Hanged man, I feel little desire to do, or go, which is indicated in my dream, I think. Nothing seems literal at the moment. And it's lovely to sit in possibility, feelings, subtleties without feeling a need to act or take notions seriously. What a strange land!
I have crazy butterflies in my stomach. Perhaps the bright, full moon will throw my switch and illuminate my darkish inner sky and let me in on what's going on. I feel odd, as if I'm waiting for something. Anticipation is jumping around in my cells.
As I'm indulging in self-reflection this holiday weekend, tell me. How will you spend your precious life moments?
"Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't." --Alice via Lewis Carroll.
